Carson

Reposting cause I ❤️ women View quoted note →

There was a year when I was in high school that I picked a different path for myself. A different school model. It didn’t work out as expected and turned out to be the busiest and most stressful time of my life to that point. From wake to sleep I was busy every day with school work. I am grateful for that year. I unlocked a new understanding of what I am capable of. There was a clarity of mind I associate with that time as well. I was thoughtful about what I wanted for myself and took action towards it. As embarrassing as this is to admit, I have not kept that same clarity of mind, directionality, and consistent action. Life changes and distractions come into play. I can forgive myself for this, I am young and still learning. I’ve recently noticed myself entering a period similar to that time. I spend considerable time every day doing work with my future in mind. I am pushing myself where I haven’t been in the past. It may be some time before I am the person I aim to be, and perhaps more time until I’ve achieved the future I envision for myself. But I making progress and good things will inevitably come.

I too long for land View quoted note →

Ideally nanotech/nanomaterials, but more materials science more generally! View quoted note →

Bluebird by Charles Bukowski there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I'm too tough for him, I say, stay in there, I'm not going to let anybody see you. there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I pour whiskey on him and inhale cigarette smoke and the whores and the bartenders and the grocery clerks never know that he's in there. there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I'm too tough for him, I say, stay down, do you want to mess me up? you want to screw up the works? you want to blow my book sales in Europe? there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I'm too clever, I only let him out at night sometimes when everybody's asleep. I say, I know that you're there, so don't be sad. then I put him back, but he's singing a little in there, I haven't quite let him die and we sleep together like that with our secret pact and it's nice enough to make a man weep, but I don't weep, do you?