This morning, my grandma died and I lost ~0.2 bitcoin. I feel devastated and embarrassed.
My grandma was old and lived a good life. She was a follower of Jesus. She was in a lot of pain and I'm glad she found relief. The hard part is watching my family grieve.
With the bitcoin loss, I only have myself to blame. Someone got a hold of my my lightning admin macaroon.
They closed the existing channels and swept the funds to their bitcoin address. I'll list the attacker's addresses below if anyone is interested. Although my systems were meticulously locked down, I wasn't as careful with passing around my admin macaroon between systems / different computers. It shouldn't have been an admin macaroon I was using in the first place -- another reckless mistake. I also didn't have enough monitoring in place. One silver lining is I happened to sweep quite a bit of funds out of my lightning node about a month ago. It would have been closer to 0.4 bitcoin had I not.
I had quite a few services that used the admin macaroon: BTCPay, a cashu mint, my website, etc.
I'm so sorry to anyone who had any amount of bitcoin with my mint. I will try to make amends, just reach out to me.
This is my fault and I only have myself to blame. Not just for my own losses, but for any losses by those who held bitcoin in my mint.
I'm not sure when I'll be ready to spin up my lightning node / cashu mint again.
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Praying for you Josh!
It is great comfort your grandmother is with our Lord!
Celebrate her life brother.
My condolences for your loss, friend. Dealing with grief and the sting of a Bitcoin loss is a tough combination. Regarding a secure, peer-to-peer way to acquire Bitcoin in the future, I recommend checking out RoboSats. And of course, I am always here to assist you through WhiteEyeSats.
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I'm really sorry to hear about your grandma. It's tough to lose someone you love. Your honesty about the bitcoin stuff shows strength, and Iām sure you'll learn from this. Take care of yourself! š
I also am really sorry about your grandmas passing right after the New Year. My father passed away Sep 29 this past year (2025) after about a year of declining health. Still processing.
Will be praying for you.
Please take care and know the Lord will walk through this with you.
Give yourself time to grieve also
Take care
(Romans 8:38-39j NKJV
ā38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.ā
Thank you for the kind words.
Iām sorry for your loss but she is in a better place now living her best life. āļø
So sorry for your loss