You mean to tell me there are people out there who survive *without* cannabis?? In this day and age? How??

Fml.. this is awful.. but if I call in sick we're homeless.. if I try to work I'm just going to get worse. Fuck whatever this is

It's me again. I've known this was coming for a couple of days but I kept procrastinating til the last minute in the hope that.. I don't know, I guess that money would magically fall from the sky or something, with better odds for that than me actually figuring out a way to solve our teetering on the edge of homelessness. My retail job feels like it's slowly killing my soul (and my body) one day at a time. It's a big part of why I've been quiet lately - I am utterly exhausted all the time. Being an emotional support human is another part. Teetering on the edge of homelessness is another. Still in further part, I've been sort of numb since the election. All this leaves me feeling like I've metaphorically lost my voice - I'm simply too stunned to write lately. I had a couple of projects I was really starting to get psyched about but the topics are quite emotionally heavy and I always feel so depleted that I can't bring myself to work on them. Plus that whole goddamned fear of inescapable failure. Ugh. I need a vacation so I can actually work on stuff. First thing tomorrow we're going to schedule a tour of an income-restricted housing property who responded to our application. We're trying not to get our hopes up too high but it does sound more practical than some of our other options. Anyway, we've somehow magically managed to keep this motel room for almost two months now thanks to so many shockingly generous people packed tightly into my little phone. I say magically because I can't wrap my head around the fact that we've still managed to stave off complete homelessness. It seemed impossible yet here we are. I couldn't find a way to make the money for tonight's stay appear out of thin air contrary to my hopes of solving the dilemma up until the very last moment. It's due by 12pm MST and I must once again for the thousandth time ask for your help. I screwed up - I shouldn't have waited so long hoping I'd Macgyver my way out of the situation and now my lollygagging has put the safety of my partner and our dog at risk. I don't have a rational explanation for it. Excruciatingly long story short, if you are willing AND able to spare anything at all - seriously we're grateful for any help whatsoever regardless of amount - please consider donating via venmo or cashapp due to my procrastination-induced urgency. If you're broke and unable to spare a dime just like us, a boost is still incredibly helpful and deeply appreciated.

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Thank you all once again for your help and support. I sincerely wish I could be enough of an adult to no longer need to mooch from strangers.

Whelp.. I just screamed at the top of my lungs by the self checkouts with two supervisors mere feet away. I guess it was more of an extremely loud growl of indignant anger. It seemed like it slipped out before I could consciously stop myself. I think I might be getting a wee bit burnt out. Being functionally homeless while working retail during the holidays is.. an experience. Totally worth $15/hr. Just a terrific combo.

I would say I'm utterly speechless but it would be as meaningful as "pun not intended" in written form. Someone literally just donated the equivalent a week's net wages for me, to our gofundme. We will also now have shelter for a week because of it. Simultaneously I am stunned, relieved and ashamed by the magnitude of this anonymous generosity. To whomever just did this, nothing I could write would sufficiently convey our gratitude.. I don't know what to else to say besides thank you.

It's pretty pathetic when I can't even muster the spoons to write 6 characters for a content warning. Yet I have the spoons to pontificate endlessly otherwise. I'm sorry everyone if I've triggered you by my lack of CWs. That was selfish of me.

On my way to deal with Karens all day, passing all the maga flags newly popped up celebrating the impending apocalypse. Four more years at least of gaslighting, inhumane austerity, irrational bigotry, blind injustice, and above all heartless, sociopathic cruelty. These are not the values I was taught. I was taught to love thy neighbor, to comfort the afflicted, to seek a safer, fairer, world for everyone. I was not taught to scapegoat others for my own benefit. I was taught love, respect, and just basic civility. Fuck.

Whelp.. that was almost very very bad.. was dropping off my ballot and I was so confused by all these gigantic weird fucking roundabouts by City Hall that I missed the stop sign and went sailing across the main road here. Did I mention the police station is also by City Hall? Fuck that could've been awful for multiple reasons.