I was trained by a UFC fighter and his peers yet here I sit on my scrawny ass everyday NOT coaching the men who need what I have most. What the fuck is wrong with me? Is all that time, money, sweat, and blood meant to be wasted and lost?? I need my coaches to beat the FUCK out of me. It is ONE HOUR a day 🤦‍♂️ I'm miles from where I need to be. Sure my personal projects and career matter, but I need to dedicate FIVE FUCKING PERCENT of my time to other men. Like bro what THE FUCK 😭 I'm such a FOOL. I will hate this version of me in 20 years, no, FIVE YEARS! Lord forgive me.