Leaving this article for anyone who might want to start to try to understand the effects of child abuse/trauma.
*I'm not looking for sympathy.*
My father was a drug addict and alcoholic. He was abusive. Physically, verbally, sexually.
I criticize myself more than anyone else can and I've have spent a lot of my life working on the effects of the abuse.
I need patience, I need support to keep working on the effects. I appreciate the friends that care for me and find patience for me, and especially the ones who will call me out when I need to be called out.
I'm not going to feel shame over this. It is not my shame.
I think I'm a kinder person than most but yes, I make mistakes, and yes, they are usually rooted in the abuse.
Being vulnerable, fear of abandonment are tough. I will continue to be a work in progress.
The link between childhood trauma and adult behaviour | Harbor London
