zonk :fatteratte:

tried to get in touch with the town plug and he called me a fed and blocked me because i moved here half a year ago. ok???????

boss is ranting and raving about how cool claude code is. it built a pretty cool prototype web app for someone with basically 0 tech experience. but then i looked under the hood and spent the better part of a day fixing all the security issues. im the furthest thing away from a web dev and even i know that stuff like input validation is MANDATORY

i can't believe we shut down vine so we could watch thirst traps, followed by footage of war crimes, and then an ad for moisturizer, all within 30s of each other. no wonder we have irreversible brain damage

i got everything i wanted last night, a long-standing multi-year fantasy bordering on obsession finally came true. and in the moment i panicked, not knowing what to do with the ultimate freedom i'd been granted. but i eventually managed to get myself together and enjoy it. man. i feel so fulfilled and whole again. a part of me broke last night, but by morning i realized what a huge weight it was off of my shoulders. finally, i am free

explaining same sex attraction to straight people is always fun. out of all of the directions that my brain and heart pull themselves into, the "woman" direction is absent. it just doesn't exist. i see women as friends, but my heart just can't feel anything in that direction. it's like a massive, gaping void. there just isn't anything in there. and then straight people will look into that void and go "what the hell. how can this be a void? i don't get it" and it's very difficult to explain my lived experience that there is, in fact, that void, and that it's the same void for the "same gender" directions in their own personal coordinate systems. it's really not that difficult, it's just a hole. but because we don't talk about these types of things that often, it's hard to communicate precisely :)