Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi: 6 months ago

Does anyone else just randomly forget how to spell a word they've typed countless times? It just took me six tries to type the word "sensitive" correctly. Cognitively, I know how to fucking spell it. It's a word with which I am quite familiar. Nevertheless, it suddenly looked like gobbledygook and I almost had to use a dictionary. Almost. Sometimes I wonder if I'm already going senile in my early *cough* mid forties.

Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi: 6 months ago

#Darmok and #Gravy at #Tanagra

Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi: 6 months ago

I was today years old when I learned "prom" is short for "promenade"

Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi: 7 months ago

Howdy everyone, Forgive me for cluttering your timeline with the rattling of my digital tin cup. It's my day off, which means time to scramble to catch up everything I've had no spoons for during the week and by extension wake up even more tired tomorrow than I did this morning. Anyway, what little I had left over from my pay advance from yesterday's shift after paying for today's motel room had to be used for the laundromat and a handful of items from the grocery store. Consequently, I have virtually nothing available to cover our motel room in the morning ($60). In addition, our storage unit (with the vast majority of our worldly possessions) is due this weekend ($190). If we can pay it on time, it would save $50-$60 in late fees. I'm trying to be more proactive about fundraising for it *before* it's past due. I know #MutualAid is rapidly becoming more scarce as more people who didn't win the birth lottery become perilously close to the edge of financial oblivion, and scammers taking advantage of others for nefarious purposes. I also know we've used far more than our "fair share" of those same resources making it more difficult for others to accomplish their fundraising needs, which is something that weighs heavily on my mind every waking minute. Furthermore, I'm depressingly aware that the community might be starting to get overwhelmed and desensitized to the needs of community #Solidarity. The words "This isn't GoFundMe!" makes me cringe a little every time I read them because I try so hard to fight the shame and embarrassment of needing help -- but it seems more difficult to show oneself grace compared to showing mercy to others. My partner and I are two members of the #LGBTQ+ community. We struggle with #MentalIllness and my partner in particular fights the demons of untreated #PTSD every day. We tend to #SelfMedicate to cope with reality, and we can barely care for ourselves. I wish every day that I had the spoons to hold down a second job to help support our little family. I know he wishes every day he could get a handle on the psychological turmoil in his battered brain. We're not intentionally trying to scam or mislead, but I understand if it's just gotten to be too much dealing with us constantly panhandling. I believe very strongly that all of us here on the Fediverse deserve a timeline where they feel comfortable. Nevertheless, even if you mute or block me I plead that you not become numb to the needs of the community. Remember to carefully vet the people to whom you donate to avoid professional scammers, and hold on dearly to the empathy that has made Mastodon and the Fediverse my passion for more than two years now. Perhaps that's what scares me more than anything else -- the loss of empathy. There are many people in far more tumultuous circumstances; even if you've reached the last straw with me, I beg of you, dear reader, to cling tightly to your empathy and guard it with everything you've got. I'm pretty sure empathy is the only chance we have. Thank you, my friends. If you're willing AND able, please boost and if possible donate. If you can't donate, *do NOT feel guilty* for being in the same boat as us. Your feelings about it are valid but rest assured you needn't feel bad. Venmo:

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